As I think about bells ringing, I can almost feel the excitement that my younger self would feel every time the middle school break time bell rang. Spoiler alert, I never got a chance to actually ring it but that’s okay because the walk back to class would probably shed off about 5 minutes from my already short 30minutes break from staring at teachers all day. I am 200% sure that 9 year old me would smack ‘grown up’ me across the face for even suggesting that this is a blog post title to be excited about.
I guess adults truly are weird people after all, because this quirky adult is super excited to be back at blogging after her super long five months break (dusts cobwebs). Now you’re probably thinking, “guuurl, who stopped you from coming back?”. Well quirkers it all started out as what I thought was writers block, I can recall multiple times during the past five months when I would sit at my laptop and type stuff. I have a whole folder filled with multiple paragraphs of potential blog posts but that’s all they will ever be, just paragraphs. It’s because of these paragraphs that I finally understand what writers block is. It isn’t that I had nothing to write about, hence “the paragraphs.” The paragraphs just didn’t have that oomph that I wanted, and as much as I needed to get content out to you guys, I wasn’t ready to compromise its quality.
As a content creator there’s this constant pressure to always have something to put out to my followers lol over a thousand people from all corners of the world that I have never met before (who’s the influencer now? Lol.) Don’t get me wrong I absolutely love each and every one of you but this pressure often times leads to self-neglect. A lot of emotion goes into creating content and I personally take for granted just how much of myself I pour into my work that I forget that a vessel that keeps pouring out without refilling eventually runs dry. Apart from creating content, there are whole lot of other things in my personal life that I was pouring into and, for lack of a better word, I guess I was drained. And so my mind forced my body into a break, ‘yaaay minds’!
This break has given me the chance to have conversations with myself, listen to myself, laugh with myself and argue with myself (that’s definitely not an argument I can win). I guess sometimes all we need to do is reduce the volume of everything else in our lives and take a step back to breath. I guess the idea of constantly racing with time to tick off every item on the endless to-do list that is adulting makes this extremely hard to do because of the fear of falling behind, among other things, but a wounded impala can’t run that far ( evidence that I’ve seen and read Bambi, lol) so rest is good, breaks are good take time to take care of yourself.
How do you know when you need a break? let me know in the comment section.
PS: In other news, these pictures are from a shoot I had last year with the amazing @blacK Slug. I never got to share them with you, so I’m doing it now lol.
Until next time